letter to a rose that loves the queen, or the king, because a rose is a rose is a rose

The soul, the light please.

I'll let you in on a secret: you haven't started loving, you've just changed the swear words. Where exactly is the safe place? Your good intentions have many colors. You're so angry for no reason. You apologize just to shut me up. Just because you say you love me doesn't mean you have the right to make me feel like nothing. You know, deep down, when you're hurting. And then the only thing that helps is to acknowledge that it's true. If I don't, every next step leads to a panic attack. I can't rely on your word because I never hear one. I don't like the way you talk to yourself when you're talking to someone else. Changing your dress every day doesn't make you special, it just makes you change your dress a lot. Saying strong things doesn't make you strong, it just makes you say strong things. There is a difference between truth and proof. Recognized, not advertised. I can prove that I can speak with an English accent, but the truth is that an English accent doesn't exist. You don't want to be recognized. Feel yourself, get to know yourself.

The ego, the rose please.

»Actually, I just want you to know that I want you to stay, Don't leave me alone with me, And don't let me go, Don't let me go, Don't let me go on you.«

»What else I wanted to say, I'll just tell you, I'm not a man in revolt, The revolt is in me, The revolt is in me, In my body the viruses nest, The depressions that destroy me, In my body the black holes, And the lightning bolts, I strike like a howitzer, Protect me.

The revolt is in me...«

»I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.« Even if they only feel what you don't want to feel. Even if you only feel what others don't want to feel. Even if it is a cycle. A movie reel. A poor, inauthentic movie. Confession through projection. Cinématographe. Break the circle. Make a cut. Feel for yourself. Know that you are the filmmaker. Not the screen. Play a different movie. Your movie. Your philosophy. Be kind, be compassionate to yourself. Forgive yourself, find your way back to yourself. To your light. Because it's yours. And then: luminaire. I like it when we share our beautiful, strong fire with others, not our weak one. If you’re angry, be angry, but don’t act on that anger. If you’re jealous, understand that you’re jealous, but don’t act on that emotion. The world around you changes, your anger, your envy is always the same. Fully experience these emotions, listen to what they are trying to tell you, but these emotions do not control your actions. You are more than that.

»When feelings are heavy they become all we are, And we become night time dreamers, And street walkers, small talkers, When we should be daydreamers, And moonwalkers and dream talkers, And we become night time dreamers, Street walkers, small talkers, When we should be daydreamers, And moonwalkers and dream talkers, In real life, All I ever know is what I dream about when I’m sober, Never turn away from love before the love you have is over, (Nothing can die), All I ever know is what I dream about when I'm sober, (Nothing can die), Never turn away from love before the love you have is over, Nothing can die while we are here, Nothing can die while we are here, Nothing can die while we are here, Nothing can die while we are here«

I will not betray myself.

The head is only a servant, the master is the heart. The soul is responsible for the intelligence of the heart. A wonderful luminary. When you meet her, tell her that I love her.

*Mit Lyrics von Faber, Tocotronic, Maya Angelou und Aurora